Happy Birthday

Hello LADY!!

I think lady is angry of me?? Isn't it??....It is quite nonsensical that i am writing note almost one month late to the CHIRPY...CHIRP LADY to wish her BIRTHDAY which was on 13th March 2011. Even She didn't had time to make the most of the day....This is the degree of being busy in our life...No time for other than WORK, STUDIES, SUCCESS etc.

But its the person's determination, who finishes things right at their time to make most of the happenings around, and some knock the door by some delays....as I am...But it is strictly due of my involvement  in as said WORK...WORK....thing...as i, even didn't had enough time to BREATH.

Now, it will be much stupidity of mine if I wish you the DAY...but....Greet toh banta hai....So....MANY MANY HAPPY RETURNS OF THE DAY (of course BELATED!!) , HAPPY BIRTDAY my sweetuuu, chocopie...etc..etc...and of course my YOUNG LADY!!

I know you are angry of me...as i didin't knocked your inbox right at the tring..Tring time of your BIRTHDAY....Hmmm....noways to excuse, but itna toh banta hai..k....i can ask you...What's your age now?? If you are OLD EnuffFF!!...You may take my sentence the way you want....Indeed what you think about by going through!! And my thought flows as you think...I am open how you take my words...but do let me know tooo GirrrLLYY!!

Besides the above said...BOGUS things....BIRTHDAY is a special day....for one and any...and for you...my chirpy....golu,,molu....Chocopie LADY...it has to be very special...So i thought of, to write something which is some realistic...motivational...and etc...etc...Here I go!!

" It is good to be thankful for what you have in life and what you have accomplished. But open your eyes to the larger picture. If we are to appreciate the fruits of life, we must first appreciate the tree that bears the fruit: birth itself. Birth is your beginning. It is a window to the chance of a lifetime, the chance to fulfill your unique mission. So a birthday is a momentous occasion, to be commemorated just as a nation commemorates its birth or as an organization celebrates its founding. Still, it is much more than an occasion to receive gifts. It is a chance to remember the day that a major event occurred, to celebrate and give thanks and to reflect upon how well we are fulfilling our calling."

---All FUCKING BULLSHIT from ME....you must be thinking like that....And Yes, you are all correct....as i have got the above words randomly in my mailbox.,...ALL GYAN....and i know.,..you had enough of GYAN in your LAST EXAAAMMMSS!!

So....here comes my way.....Waiting right at 12:00....tick-tock....tick-tock...Wall Clock plucking its strings to make the MOOD for the time...and yes of course to break the silence.....but why so silence right at the hour of HURRAY & Celebration....it's due of the deep silence in soul and a storm in Heart & Mind to wait for the one important call from the most important person in your life...and what your favorite tune on your phone rings up...Heart Beating at it's PACE...and you got the wishes...HAPPY BIRTHDAY...TO YOU.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR SHIVALI.....Hmmmm...if i wud have the person....Happy Birthday LADY!! Quite FILMY

Leaving all apart.....Ab it was your BIRTHDAY....So....GIFT is obvious.....Tell me the GIFT you wanna from me...besides this SHITY note!! And then only....the real curse of BIRTHDAY will come in na??......PPPAAARRRTTTYYYYYY!!! Till the time kisi ne gift nae dya hai...He/She can't ask...That's the visa to join the partyyy!! :)

Shivali, you know....it was your birthday....and i am telling you how to make the day....You do whatever you want, it's your day have.....FUN....DANCE....DRINK....!!

Above all...if you would have chosen to come to me to celebrate the day....(that's is not going to happen at any time)...I would have taken you to a lonely walkaway..having both ways grren grass....after having enough of our walk..we would have sat on a stone shaped stool where we can comfortably place our bumps..i need to think more about that..as i am gaining weight like anything!! Then, we would had a epic talk...talk....talk...then...you would have told....FAZAL...Beta Baat karney se HapppY BIRTHDAY nahi hota...Where is my GIFT??....And...thn.....I am like....GIFT...GIFT...I dint took any.., as i couldn't find any which is fit to you to be gifted....So i thought,,,Let's bring ME in the gift wrap...and you know...GIFT WRAP was torned while i was making myself to come up here...waisey bhi wrapps mein kya rakha hai...You are a intelligent LADY.....So...I brought myself as your GIFT...If you aceept....you gonna be in losss...Mere sare kharchey yo would need to bear!! :)

...Leaving the GIFT terminolgy....we have loads to do to make the day...and its only 7 of evening, Let's have dine together....and then we gonna plan to what NEXT!!

So...NEXT...due on you...as you are the BIRTHDAY GIRL!!...nooo....BIRTHDAY LADY!!

Waiting for NEXT from you!!...And Yup...I really mean the said NEXT!!

Byee!!...See you some time Sweetu!!

Leaving with...All Love & Care!! God Bless You!!

Happy Independence Day!!!

I am sorry

Dear @!\ig€₤,

I am extremely sorry for the words what I said and the way i hurt your feelings, I really apologize for the kind of mistake I did. You know with your absence I was going through hard times, and by that “culprit letter” I only wanted to let you know how much I am meaningless without you, but my fate!! it landed me into the arena of defendants. I know you are upset to me for what I committed but it was just to express myself to you… and now I realize the quote “ To do something right never enfold a short-cut” and I took the wrong way. I can figure out how much I hurt you and I do regret it, and you have every ground to be upset and away from me. I always used to ask you, “If I am so bad?” and look poor me answered my own!! You were correct to the every decision for not being with me, and I do realize it!!☹☹

I understand how much you are hurt and upset, but I also want you to know how I feel. You left me on a side alone and I was lost to the world. It took me to the way of stray where I couldn’t figure out why it’s me? Moreover your absence made me “No one” from “Someone”. I trust you a lot and I really get sad when you are hurt. I know I can’t fix the damage of trust and hurt done with one apology, but I truly meant to the word it stands for. I am sorry for what I did and assure you not to hurt you in future and will do whatever it demands to regain your trust.

I know you probably don’t like and trust me, but I think you are the best soul to me in the whole world and I am certainly blessed with your presence. For the mistake I have done, I am finding it oppressive to forgive myself and so slandered that I can’t built myself enough discourteous that I can face me!! Of course the game of “I versus Me” has begun and fazal will not win unless and until you don’t find in your heart to pardon me for my deed. I know you have been avoiding and ignoring me for times but you mean a lot to me and I can’t afford to lose you, and will never give-up on you.

I wanted to tell you many a things. Though someday I will tell you or maybe someday you will come to know or might be you already know and I don’t. However let it happen, but I want you to know that I trust you, and that I’ll always be there for you above any other person, be it solicit, friend, dream or depression. I count myself among the luckiest souls in the universe for meeting you. Thank you for being here for me.

If you think, If I should be forgiven?? Please forgive me and give me another chance!!

Looking forward to hear from you at earliest.

☹☹☹
fazal